Screaming so loud but no one hears
Slicing my wrists to realise my fears
Crying endlessly to show how I feel
Punching the wall to see if lifes real
Closing my eyes and everythings plain
Opening them and its all the same
Turning my head to see smiles
Looking into the mirror and its just vile
Spinning around pretending Im five
Faking my laughs and trying to be alive
Telling myself Im kidding myself
Knowing deep inside I need help
Clenching my knuckles until they go white
Living in the world with each day a fight
Biting my tongue holding my thoughts in
Hating how Ill never win
Loving my own blood from my veins
Wondering why this helps the pain
Exploding in class that day
Saying that theyll all pay
Yelling my loudest Ive ever done
Running away I know lifes not fun
Rolling down that hill teachers chasing me
Sneering at them now they shall see
Cheering to myself with a blade in my pocket
Holding onto my dead grandmothers locket
Hiding in the bushes everyone yelling out my name
Hoping they know this isnt a game
Cutting deeper than ever before
Fainting and closing my life door
Everything will now be better
Worrying about no goodbye letter
Smiling as I die on the school grounds
Jumping for joy inside as Im found
Cutting, hating, pain, dying, dead
Flying to heaven now thinking what a tragic life I lead.
