My Scars

I haven't been on in a while, thought I'd submit a random one

|My Scars|
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No scars fade with time
They leave their imprint on our mind
They're with us whether happy or sad
To remind us of the times we've been bad

To show that when we're alone
No amount of self restraint can hold
Our utmost desires from causing havok
Yet try as we may we can't get them to stop

I've never known why I've done it
Why I cut my self away, bit by bit
But I know one day soon I'll go too deep
And slowly slip into that eternal sleep

For now it's my own gruesome thrill
I'm not brave enough to make the kill
I'll sit in the dark, in silence, in pain
Trying to keep from going insane

It's what I want and what I need
The urge to die and my urge to bleed
The rope, the drugs or the gun
Russian roulette, what fun!

Maybe I'll just wait to be found
Hanging by my neck, two feet above the ground
What about in a coma, with a needle in my arm
My last desperate, pathetic act of self harm

My scars if you listened would tell you a story
But at the moment they're just for me
I struggle with it constantly, day to day
A new scar to keep my pain away

© Mitch