Fake heroes

That girl i look upon
look up to and long to be
even when i scream and shout
refuses to notice me

what's in your mind
what thoughts lurk in your brain
whats the reason you act this way
do you smile or scream of pain

do you pride yourself on being
so damn unpredictable
is there just too much today
are there no thoughts at all

fear love hate anger lust or dream
please help me to see
and finally be able to undertand
the false hero in me.