Im okay now

I know i promised
but i really don't know
you think I'm happy
but my pain i don't show
i want to stop
i swear i do
i said i would
because i love you
i hate doing this
it makes you so angry
i try hard not to
i just want you to love me
you should know by now
i cant stop the past
so much has happened to me
making the pain last
i can only take it away
with my one true friend
i know i said i wouldn't
but it makes the pain end
the side so sharp
touching my wrist
I'm sorry if i hurt you
I'm not sorry I'm doing this
you don't know my pain
and yet you say you do
but you really don't
you don't have a clue
my best friend died
and my dad hates me
every one is so self centered
not caring what they see
they cause so much pain
telling others to die
not knowing they go home
everyday only to cry
but as i cut down
the point so far in
i hope i go not
so i don't have the pain within
it will just disappear
as i go to an eternal sleep
but nobody will notice
so nobody will have to weep
it didn't take that long
for this promise to be broken
i told you not to trust me
these words i have spoken
so now as i leave this place
with one last wave good-bye
ill be okay from here on
so i no longer have to cry