Decide ,decide

Am i really feeling you pulling away
or is it all in my head.
i have to call you , you don't call me anymore.
i have to say i love you , never volunteer .
i have Passion for you in my voice
i can hear you "going through the motions".
you say you love me, you say you want us to be together , i really don't believe you anymore .
i believe the love is there but since
"you have the black cloud under control" it is turning you impatient ,irritable and cold, there is no expression other than anger and selfishness.
is this all in my head or will you come to me when its all too late?
in my head my mind plays tricks i hope this is one now ,i can't lose you my "little bundle of heaven".