just don't understand
how when everything was good
i was so stupid
after all the pain Ive suffered i inflicted the same hurt
to someone else...
that actually loved me
and now i realize just how much she actually did love me
i just thought Brit was so great...
i was wrong
just like thousands of other times
so now i lie waiting for something to come to the surface
she still claims to love me i don\'t see how
i just wish i could show how sorry i am
how horrible i feel for what i have done
me being stupid is an understatement
it was fu**ing retarded
now I\'m back to square one sitting here at 6 am writing these
useless poems trying to salvage some happiness left
i just cant believe myself
i need a miracle to make it through but it looks like Ive
found it, found something close
now i see my world spiraling down
just like all the times before
all i have to do now is get it i just don\'t know how
so sad even her best-friend had her taken wrong
i just don\'t understand how people can do this to one another its madness, the sad thing is after all this time from all the other times this pain isn\'t going away
these cuts wont heal
and time is not on my side this time.
i will never know myself till i do this on my own
and i will never feel like I\'m close to something real
i wanna find something i wanted all along somewhere i belong....
