The Way I Feel

I'm ashamed of this pain
cause i can't tame my brain
all these thoughts passing through
not one of them are true
wondering each day
why my life's in disarray
stuck in the past
this face is just a mask
for this pain that i hide
for this pain deep inside
my life's torturous
compared to some its pure bliss
but i cant help the fact
that my brains on a map
racing around the globe
each day's a strobe
here one minute and gone the next
leaving me a little perplexed
always wondering what you'll say
wondering if your okay
not knowing what happened
next thing i know my life is flattened
now I'm standing here alone
trapped in a cyclone
searching through the possibilities
avoiding the hostilities
I don't understand how
I'm going insane now
Why would they do this
it sounds like somethings amiss
will it ever work out true
or will i be stuck without you