As I lay in this darkness all I think about is death
And how I will feel as I take my last breath
I think about the crime I committed in the past
And how long this torchuring pain will last
Whenever I have dream they somehow turn into nightmares
They r mostly bout death and how my end is near
I no in the past I have done a lot of stuff
But when it comes to the real life I'm never gonna be enough
It may look like I'm happy on the outside
But that's not true I really wish I could have died
Ive tried suicide a couple of time but then I thought
I don't wanna die like this Id much rather get shot!!
But now its time to let my past go
All this shit has gone on and no one will ever know
This pain Ive felt for all these years
Will finally disappear
Disappear from my mind and my dreams
But in the end Ive come to learn nothing is as it seems !!!!!!
