Not for You

The rain comes again
Covering up my tears
Filling up my life
With things not worth living for

I cry, not for what I am
But for what I am not
And I do not scream
To feel different
But to try to feel the same
As everyone else can

I hold everything back
Not for them not to notice
But to see who really knows me

I do not create these scars
So you will feel bad for me
But to give myself
What I feel I deserve

And I am not going to die
Because you want me to
But only because
I cannot make it on my own