I slowly die

I dont no what to say right now cuz im writing this for the first time. i dont no if i will end up dying or not i just want something or someone to make all this pain go away. i no i shouldnt have said anything and not even of said hi but now i feel so much love and i want to make sure he does too. but today he told me that to night was his last night. i herd that and u cant even tell i have a face i just am covered in tears.

i want to die as much as he says he does . i have to leave. just get away from my family i dont care what way i leave as long as i do leave. i dont want to hurt anyone who loves me so i\'ll say i love u back to them. as for my mom i\'ll make her happy for once. she always said i was better off dead i dont no if i am doing this right i wish i had someone to tell me that i need to stay on this earth and that they really love me but no one seems to be there and no one seems to love me. and i have no friends to support me

i dont want to leave really but no one loves me and no one is ever there

i love you all ray,seth,moody,harley,nick,adreanna,