As Time Goes By

Many years ago life was such a treasure to her,
She was always happy and up beat,
An ordinary optimistic little girl,
No matter what happened nothing brought her down,
Not the divorce,
Difficulties in school,
Or family deaths,
She had her whole life ahead,
She was going to take all the advantage.

Many months ago life got tougher,
She would get down on herself a lot,
But always bounce back to her joyful self,
She started asking questions about who she was,
Why she was here,
But she tried not to let her answers haunt her,
The fact that she was no body,
And she was here for no special reason,
She would assure herself it was a rough patch in life,
Everyone was going through it,
And life went on.

Quite a few weeks ago she realized not everyone felt the same way,
They were self confidant and felt they had worth,
But she felt like she didnt deserve life or to live,
She would stay awake every night thinking,
Why not die?
Life started meaning nothing to her,
The appearing scars on her arm proved this,
She just wanted to die,
And not have to deal with the future,
''My depression will never be known about as long as I live'',
The last promise she ever made.

Days ago life still existed to her,
Unwanted yet still there,
She followed her daily routine with no passion,
Only hatred toward the world,
Hatred because so many people are oblivious to others pain,
Her only goal for the future was to not have one,
And she stopped taking life seriously,
Knowing that she wont have one much longer,
''Life is just a game to test how long I will put up with it'',
This being her last thought every night.

And now,
Her promise has been kept,
No one knew of her depression,
Not until she pulled the trigger,
And the bullet hit her head,
Not until then did they realize how oblivious they had been.