It's 3 am
And I'm still
asking myself
why
in my mind
why i want to
change myself
so much
why i am wishing
that i was
different in
the first place
I'm always wishing
i had
blonde hair
and
blue eyes
or maybe
short dark brown
hair with
red and blonde
highlights
and green eyes
or having my
belly button pierced
maybe my
lip or tongue
wishing i
had sexy
lips and perfect
body figure
possibly bigger boobs
but at the same
time, I'm
happy the way
i look
i love my
curves and
my thighs
my thin lips
to my
hair color and
length
so once again
why?
why do i
complain
and wish
i was different?
when i know
i love myself
already?
why is it
that i
think that way
about my looks?
is it that
i doubt
myself when i
know i
like myself
the way i
am
why do i
doubt that
when i think about
what i'm I'm writing, i feel
like i
sound like
a fake
shallow
wanna-be
perfect
slut!
but i just
wanna be
perfect in
my eyes
is that actually
a bad
thing
to want
i never
though I'd be
this confused
about
something so
little and stupid
i wonder
if i'm I'mmaking sense
is there only
1 way
to find out
what i
truly want
or do i have
to try
everything until
i find out
what i
want?
or maybe
i have
to
just
wait.
for whatever it is
to come
to me
i don't know
do you?
am i
wrong about
all of
this?
am i the
only 1 who
feels this
way?
am i alone
on this?
about this?
do i want
to change for me?
or people
around me?
either way
would it be a
bad thing?
it is 4 am
and i'm still wonI'ming
the same thing
i guess i
just need to be
patient now
and wait
for an answer
on what i should
do.
am i doing this for your love?
or am i
supposed
to make my
own changes?
for me?
i think that sounds
right
is it?
great...
once again
i'm doubting
wI'm do i do?
If i changed
would i still love you?
would you
still be true?...
