No more heart beat

Heres another love storie
gone sadly wrong
sitting on the floor crying
listening to our song

maybe you forgot
or maybe you don't care
at least give me a sign
you making my heart tare

I'm just one of those girls
who cant be held on to
just one of those girl
who a guy cant say i love you

don't wanna always be on the side
with sadness in my heart
but i don't think it can be fixed
its been like this form the start

they used to say they love me
say " we will take it slow "
then just a few weeks later
again my life's gone out of control

don't know why i do it
i put myself through it over again
but i always wanna be this one guy
it wasn't so bad back then

there was this boy not long ago
he was just on the side
i didn't know my feeling
it was you in my life i would hide

see both two boys
one at school... one alone
like the school boy
but talk the other every night on the phone

both don't know whats going on
but if i tell ill be hated from the girls
they hate my boy outside
but he is my whole world

i finally take my own life in control
and shove my school boy away
now i have my outside boyfriend
always here to stay

been together for a year or so
but right now i feel so sad
he isn't taking notice anymore
have i done something bad?

haven't talked to the school boy
for a long time since then
but i am right now
hoping my feeling arnt played again

my boyfriend? i know he loves me
well i at least thought he did
he used to notice my heartache
and the scars and bruises i hid

but he isn't talking much now
and doesn't really love me
always getting drunk and taking drugs
and thinks that i cant see

doesn't care what i do
i talk to other boys at night
cut and throw up my food
and still doesn't give up a fight

my life doesn't really have meaning
no storie line at all
want you to notice me
see I'm torn inside and I'm about to fall...