If I knew I was going to lose you,
would I have still dug so deep.
Would I fought throughout the years,
for something I knew I couldn't keep.
Would you be doing the same,
loving me in each and every way.
Putting so much effort into something,
If you knew it would be me that died that day.
Would you be crying each day away,
lingering hopelessly like I do.
Would you struggle to grow and adapt,
or be asking others to get you through?
Would you curse the Lord like I have,
tell me, you can be honest?
Would you do all you could to find me,
if you didnt would you be astonished?
Would you cry over how well you knew me,
Cherish things that were ours alone.
Would our secrets remain inside you,
or would you make them well known.
Would sad songs repeat in your head,
Would you scream out every verse.
Would you say thanks when people understood you,
or claim that you have had it worse.
Would you still see a future ahead,
Would it be filled with happiness or tears.
Would you have a positive outlook,
or curse that your living your biggest fears.
Would you tell me at night that you miss me,
give anything to hear one more breath.
Or would you be mad at me for jumping,
and being the cause of my own death.
Would you forgive me somehow in time,
or regret all your own mistakes.
Would you be bitter like i am,
and curse the direction life takes.
Would you always carry me with you,
like I do in my everyday.
Would you smile when you think of me,
and know that I was with you in every way?
