I've tried to forget about the pain inside
But it's too much now and I cannot hide
I'm sick of not knowing who I can't trust
Being betrayed, hurt, and filled with disgust
I'm dieing, screaming, wishing, praying...
Things I'm feeling differ from what I'm saying
I'm scared, angry, and don't know what to do
I'm going crazy, and speaking words untrue
Am I more than you expected tonight?
Doesn't my intimidation just glow in dim light?
I'm craving vengeance and blood of a such
I hope I am not scaring you a little too much
Don't I look just ravishing tonight?
Rebellious, bitter, yet filled with delight?
Don't you think that I'm almost done
My immoral pleasure has only begun
Don't tell me to stop, and that I'm doing wrong
Why don't you just go back to where you belong?!
Stay away from me now, and I mean that
You've hurt me enough you little rat!
Whether you really care, or just wanna flatter
It won't make a difference, you don't matter
No one can help me, it's too late
I'm sorry to say I've decided my fate...
I sneak away and hide in a room
It's so dark, depressing and very gloom
I pull out the blade; I just wanna end it
I so much desire this one final slit
Warm blood trickles out from my wrist
The fulfillment it brings is too much to resist
I can end it now, just one more cut
I'm so close; almost out of this rut...
You catch me committing my secret crime
Looks like I won't be succeeding this time
I fill in fear seeing you stand right there
I whisper in a curse, 'life is so unfair'
I glare with anger remembering our past
But my hate on you doesn't longly last
You didn't cause this, it was many things
Mistakes, regrets, and the pain it brings
You ask how I could ever take away my life
But I just cry and drop the knife
Deep inside I just want to be cared for
I really can't do this alone anymore
You say its gonna be fine and alright
You hold me close in the darkness of night
You request the truth for me to tell
To put it simply, I'm going through hell
