Please do not let it happen again

Surprise I did not mean it
It was all a coincidence
I did not plan this
Why did it happen anyway?
It was not supposed to be
Why is it this hard?
Help me with thinking and decide
Why did I let this surprise happening
I do not want you here
I want to erase you forever
However, I cannot
It has been 4 months
And I still hanging on you
I always said it was the end
There is no place for you as my friend
I do not want you here
However, I think it will be hard for me
To keep that thought
Let it be for something
That I fought