Doubting Him

I had this thought
As I was about to send a letter him
Why does it seem like he gets offensive
When my spirits seem to dim?

He was quick to dismiss my qualms
He was quick to say 'I love you'
I'm scared to think I'm losing him
I don't know what to do

I think I'm going crazy
I don't feel like I can trust him anymore
I don't want him to know any of this
Because he might just turn around and walk out that door

Why can't I seem to trust him?
After all that we've been through?
I don't know what to do, I'm so sad
I don't know what to do

He kept saying he cared
Over and over again, why?
He's scaring me, telling me everything
Trying to convince me, but I still want to cry

I'm doubting the love of my life
I'm making the biggest mistake
But why do I feel this needs to be addressed
How much more can my poor mind take?

Oh, God, why am I being so meticulous?
Why am I trying so hard to catch him out?
What do I have to do to see what's real?
I just want to scream! Please, God, let me shout!

I'm doubting the man I love with all my heart
I'm doubting the man who can bring me down with only a glance
Why am I doubting this man, why?
It's like I'm part of the Devil's dance

One more hope to love him
No more left to understand
Choice is becoming another problem
With this situation at hand

Why do I doubt things that are real?
Why do I doubt this person that is here?
Is it because I lack myself?
Or is it because I fear?

I'm sorry baby for thinking the worst
I'm sorry for thinking wrong
I try to understand, I try to make sure I don't lie
I keep crying to this endless love song

The problem is me
It's my doubt that makes me cry
I hate to think what would happen when you leave
I don't want to hurt you, I would rather die

I hate that I made this mistake
I hate that I made you cry
I'm sorry that my hope is so little
Why did I have to go and lie?

Just one more day to cry
One more day to apologies
Until this finally ends
And this love dies