One Day

I don't understand what i feel inside

it's almost as if i don't feel

the dark just keeps getting darker and my soul goes with it

reaching out for someone, something to help but no one can.... no one will

no part pf the world makes since anymore

the things i once loved look upon me with hate

i cant make the sadness go away

its like a razor ripping through the skin to the point you cannot feel

i don't know how else to react to the things you say and do

you don't notice the little red lines and the tear soaked pillows

i have to live everyday and sleep through every night knowing i am not and never will be good enough

i go completely numb and decide that its my time

but something stops me.... i just sit and think

not good enough for anyone

nobody wants me not heaven or hell

there are so many people that i cant seem to make happy so many people that look at me and see nothing but shame

falling with nothing to grab hold of with no chance of return

all the people see me as the picture of happiness when i look in the mirror i see nothing but rejection, giving up, and sad

not knowing if any of this will ever change or if that something that stopped me will ever go away

i continue my struggle and act as if nothing is wrong

one day you will see

what you've done to me

one day one of us will win

the war that never should have been