When Im Sleepin

When I'm no longer here and your sad and crying,
Just know I'm happy now before I was lying

I wanted it to be over even though you didn't know,
When I smile I'm actually crying it just doesn't show

I just wanted to sleep I was tired of the pain,
From my crazy household to love being so vain.

I wanted to sleep so bad, but it's my friends and family I didn't want to hurt,
Now I can finally sleep as the blood seeps through my shirt.

Because nobody loves me and nobody cares anymore,
So I'm going to go in my room and behind me lock the door.

Don't cry when I'm gone I'm not worth the tears,
and please don't be mad mama if I awakened your greatest fears.

I never meant to hurt anyone I just hope you can see,
I just want to close my eyes and be happy.

I wanna stare at the back of my eye lids into the never ending darkness,
So I can feel that feeling of flying and being weightless.

Nobody knows I wanna do this, but much longer this secret I cant keep,
But once you read this then you will know that I will be much happier when I am asleep.