Guardian Angel or Fall in Love?

Why does certain things have to be so hard?
families..
friends..
relationships..
Things never run smoothly for me..
OR some people and things get in my reach then get taken away again!
I'm fed up with keep being in peoples lives and helping them and guiding them..
then they are gone again!

i wanna be in love..
i wanna be with someone..
i wanna trust..
i don't just want to guide people..
i wanna love someone and to receive love in return!

i feel like I'm a Guardian angel..
i touch peoples lives..
but i hardly get touched!
is this how feel angels feel??
they help people grow..
but are the angels truly happy inside?

if i had the choice to keep these Guardian angels wings or to fall in love..
i wood chose love at this present time..
i cant keep having people in and out of my life like i keep getting..
I'm everyones shoulder to cry on..
arms that are always open wide when a cuddle is needed!
to help wipe the tears away..
to lend a helping hand..
to guide them to the correct way!
to teach them how to get over the huge barriers that stop them from moving forward!

i cant keep doing this..
if I'm an angel who helps and guides people then don't we angels deserve to be happy?
if someone said i had the choice of keep guiding people..
OR fall in love with the one around me now and for him to fall for me!

right now i would pick....
fall in love with the one around me now and for him to fall in love with me!
we cant always be the guardian angels....
We need love in our lives too..
we may have wings that are white or gold..
but we sometimes have to think of ourselves at times!

WHAT WOULD YOU CHOSE??
hey it wood be interesting to hear what wood u chose.. love or to keep guiding people???