My friend

A friend for my pain,
I have come to know you well.
Shiny and sharp you reflect
everything I feel and fear.
You are comfort and pain
rolled into a worldly item.
You can take away the pain I feel
and at the same time you can
give me the pain I deserve.
This pain I deserve is for
all the hurt I have cause myself
and the ones that I love.
The emotions you make me feel
bring down the joy in my life
and at the same time they
give me a high like no other.
You are a friend I don't want to go
but at the same time I want you gone so badly.
I hate you and love you all at once.
You are my friend, my blade.