Unexpected Saturday

I answered expecting to hear plans of tomorrow
Instead I got a voice full of tears
I asked what was wrong I got a sob in reply
Ive done something horrible is about what you said
You sounded scared of life and scared of death all in one small sob
I prayed for you while I watched the gauge hit ninety
My hands were trembling and my lips were shaking
As I tried not to cry
Crying wont help you I told myself and God
When I got to you youre hands were shaking worse than mine
The tears down your face showed just how scared you were
I made jokes hoping to see you as I always do
But all I got were little smiles and the occasional pain filled giggle
We asked you why you would do such a thing
You didnt really say
You drank your sin and sorrow in a thick black mix
With a look of disgust and sadness painted on your face
A woman asked if I wanted to sit with my friend
I asked her if that was ok and if you didnt mind
You told me that you wouldnt tell him anything
Because it was none of his business
I asked if youd tell me and I got a maybe later
And a look to see if anyone was in the room
I told you stories about people I know and the crazy things they do
We talked about my life and things people say Ive done
You told me why you had done it and that you felt worthless
All the while I was thinking about how quickly life can end
I sat and wished I had my jewelry on and some different clothes
But decided you didnt care you were glad to have someone that really cared
I could tell you were getting tired
Of hearing the same questions again and again
I just want to go home you said although I dont know why
I watched as they swapped wires and moved you around
I slipped a little something in your pocket to let you know that I love you
Wishing again I had been wearing my jewelry
They rolled you down the hall and took you away
People told me I saved your life but that didnt matter to me
I finally aloud myself to cry cause I knew you couldnt see me
I prayed to god to keep you safe to make sure you know that I love you
Tears roll down my face while I think of the day I called you skunk...