So many lies so many things left untold...as my life slowly unfolds..as tears start falling from my face like rain falling from the sky...my pain slowly takes me away...into a place where i cant smile..so many things have gone wrong..so many people telling me to stay strong..my hearts weak...my soul is fading..i am everything i never wanted to be...everything i hate..never thinking i could have ended up this way...wanting to die with each passing day..so many mixed emotions...so many ups and downs...should i smile or should i frown..remembering the things you did to me..how could i let it happen..how could you do it...leaving me here to fear...as i drown in tears..let down by everyone who was supposed to care...who i was supposed to be able to trust..but no one was ever really there..this world is a cruel place..no one can win this race...how could this happen..i cant find my way...i don't know where I'm going..as i sit in my room..crying every night..wondering why I'm putting up this fight..who am i living for...why i am i living..so as i look at the shiny silver blade..and the scars i have made..maybe tonight it will end...the blade seems to be my only friend...it always there when I'm down..making those beautiful marks..as i fall to the ground...so as i cut my deepest tonight i know I'm giving in and giving up on my life...but maybe it was better if i ended it...because it doesn't seem like ill be missed...
