As i sit here and throw all my thoughts into words
i cant understand why everything is the way it is.
why i feel the way i feel,wondering if this is real
been through so much in my life,still cant believe i made it
this far.
So many thoughts of suicide,wondering why i cant go through
with it,wondering what keeps me here.wondering why my life is
so bare.
So many slits made on my wrist. with so many feelings hiding
behind those marks. Wondering how i let my life get this far gone
Why do i hate you, Why do i still love you,even after what you did.
my is so confused,wondering why i forgive you for what you put me
through, makes me wonder why i still care for you.
Even though i let you hurt me, I'm so many ways
i wonder why i cant keep you away.
my life never was perfect,never was it right but after those nights
why couldn't i just take my life and end this strife.
wondering why it couldn't be different,wondering why it was this way
as i sit and wonder i know I'm here for another day
