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Im sorry for what ive caused.
in sorry for ruinin your day.
im sorry that whatever comes out my mouth is nothin nice to say.
i guess i shuold take the blame for this day and every other day.
im sorry that im not nice.
im sorry that i love you too much to leave...
once again im left alone,
thinkin bout the good days.
when we were happy,
nothin was bad.
im over it.
i wish i could move on.
but youre in the other room thinkin why im actin the way i am.
i wish i could come out.
tell you im sorry.
even though i know "sorry"
just wont make it better.
my throat hurts from my hands wrapped around like a noose.
my palms cut from needles and pins.
my thoughts bruised with faded memmories when i once thought you guys were the ones who would help me through thick and thin.
i hear you in the other room
tellin them bout me.
mothin good, nothin nice, nothin to be proud of...
im such a failure.
im sucha burden.
i try so hard but no-one sees.
th darkness pulls me back.
back to when pain was all i felt and pain was all i could see.
i wish...
life wasnt such a struggle...
so much responsibilities
so much people to make happy
when you yourself needs to be happy...
how could you be happy when you dont see nuthin to be happy for...?
needless to say...
this is the last of my writing,
this is the lsat of my day...