Tonight will be the night i take the knife.i thought about it all the nights i lay in bed. my reasons are true within my heart and mind. all my life was just a lie. i try to make myself look better by saying I'm fine. but all i along i hurt deep inside. all i feel like is a girl stuck in a deep dark hole. yelling and crying for help no 1 comes cause they don't care. sometimes some1 will come and help but in the end i am out out like a freak in a show. then i go back in my hole. i make the first cut... i start to get scared please mom don't hate me u just don't understand. my 2nd cut daddy i love you i didn't mean to cause you any pain. my breathing is weird i hardly can do it. blood streaming down my arm. blood dripping unto the floor. 3rd cut please sissy don't cry my heart was so broken and confused. all i could think did i deserve what happen to me. i jut don't know where else to turn so now i sit here on the floor placing blame all on me. already missing my family but i know i had to do this. it was the only good thing. my eyed start to close now i think i see the light. if i don't die you will know the reasons why. to all my family i love y'all so much so much pain i just didn't know where to turn. so here are the reasons why so please don't cry.....................
