Just wondering

Do you hate me?
the way i am?
how I'm different
to what i was then
i wanna be Innocent
no cutting,sex, lies
don't want you to see
everyday tears from my eyes
do you see my sadness
or is it so hard to see
i wanna f u king die
so much emptiness in me
you say you care
but is it really true?
or is it just something you say
to get yourself through?