Bloody Blade

When we read Romeo and Juliet
in English class...
the bloody blade
that Juliet buried in her heart
for romeo and only
romeo...

i understand what she went through
when she committed suicide...
the same idea
rolls around in my head...

i take the kitchen knife,
lie down on my bed...
my papers of poetry...
words and words
of pain
nobody ever understood...
place my head on my pillow,
the pillow that witnessed so many nights of tears...
nights of Hell
no one but the dead understand...

stab myself,
bleed slowly
to death,
to the reign of the unknown...
heaven or hell...
no one knows...
maybe the pain will be over...
maybe not...

NO ONE KNOWS.