Everything I Have Ever Wanted

Looking at your picture
I can't stop looking
It has me hypnotized
As if its the only thing I can see
I look into your eyes
And I can still see forever in your eyes
I know I said things
Mean things
But I didn't mean any of them that I had said
Cuz I love you with all my heart
But I did tell the truth
When I told you that I loved you
And I couldn't live without you
You may not believe me now
But I pray that you will learn
How much I need you back in my life
And how horrible things have gotten
For me
Since you had left me
I know that it's been months on end
But I still cry about you
At night
Every time I think about you
I think about the memories with you
That are now burned into my mind
And I will never for get any of the memories
The memories are the only thing
Holding me together
Keeping me from coming undone
I've tried so many things
To rid the pain that you have left with me
I've tried drinking
I've tried smoking
I've even tried cutting myself
I have done so many things
I cry
There isn't a moment I regret with you
Cuz every moment with you
Was a miracle
And dream come true
Everything that I have ever wanted
But now that you are gone
I don't want to continue in life
I just want to rid the pain
The is building up inside of me
I don't know how much more I can take
Before I want everything to end
I don't know how much longer
I can go on without you
I know you don't believe me
That this is what I am feeling
And it breaks me down to where I feel like nothing
It there was one wish I could have
I'd wish
You would see how much I need you
How much I love you
How much I miss you
And maybe how much you really love me