Mind, body, heart, and soul

Mind/body

I need a good long break from this
ive got my veins in a bind and im pleased by their popping sounds
im ready to explode
ive cried ive bled and im ready to die
just drag me across the blades now
i screamed in a torment of unspoken laws
why must you disavow
the love which ive spent what seems like years
i swear i\'ll kill you one day
banging my head on the walls built in shame
am i not a wrong made worse than it has to be
be the one who stomps on my soul
my soul is growing weaker with every move your making
your making a mistake
an immature realization
that im not good enough for you
its like a conspiracy congregation
that brings me to an effervesent lie
if you feel my skin you might touch glass
cold and dead
if your fear is held in you may just surpass
like this lovley dread
marks on my flesh
from the anger shes made
bruises and cuts
from the years of decay
shes bled me dry
with a rare smile on her face
a beauty that could raise the dead
from a decades disgrace
running through a field of knives
and blackened skys
held to her decaying lies
standing on the white lines
death shining through my eyes
on your weaknesses
to cut my sins
once again

Heart/soul

Now youll heed
lest you be fake
born in denial
of within
my heart
doesnt know what it feels
it has to be told the surreal
in my mind is a dream of never having loved you
what a waste of time
because in the end
it was my mind
making the mistakes
i never knew i wanted you
and im not sure why i still care
but that just proves my solemnity
because my stupidity
has no room to interfere with my heart
but then again ive been proved wrong before
a lover in need
is now a friend indeed
can love prepare to supersede
or is the end as always a time to bleed
she has pulled away
reclusive due to an imprisoned state of mind
as the time she has to think grows longer
she fades further away from my dreams
and with no end in sight
it kills me
to think that she might
leave me
oh, such insanity
oh, the humanity
screaming profanities
as i feel im growing in vanity