Closing In

The walls are closing in.
You left me here with nothing but self doubt.
My purity's been stolen,
by what I've seen and done.
My perfections are worn as a mask,
only not to let others see me.
Now I stand here,
trying not to squint with the sun in my eyes.
How can you live the truth,
when you're treading in a sea of lies?
How can you be yourself in a world full of fakes?
Why do you give into the lies,
when the truth is right in front of you?
How do you do it?
How do you live a dream that may never come true?
How can you wish upon a star,
and believe it will come true?
I feel lost in this crowded room.
I let down my walls for you,
only to build them up again.
I used to be a diamond among the coal.
You've exposed me,
violated me, and made me worth no more than the soot that surrounds me.
Standing in this dark room,
I close my eyes,
and dream of the have beens,
could've beens,
should've beens,
wish I hadn'ts
and wish I hads.
Out of touch,
with all of my surroundings.
Captured in a cage.
unable to free any of me.
Fighting the gravity,
pulling me down to your level.
When does it end?
When does this disappointment diminish?
Colored green with envy of how and who I am.
Truth embodies your decisions.
I can't reach out.
I can't let go.
I can't break loose of these chains.
Dying to hold on to the hand offered to me.
Sometimes I wish I could fly away,
drift out to sea,
blow through the wind.
But I've let you get to me.
This has gone too far.
I can't get out, I'm in way too deep.
How do I get back to being who I used to be?
How do I get back to me?
When the walls are closing in.