Not Good Enough

I'm just not good enough for her,
she loves me,
but also loves another.
she is so beautiful,
and I'm so hideous.
these tears i shed are all for her,
not knowing what is going to happen,
not knowing if we are going to go on.
am i so wrong?
so wrong for hurting,
so wrong for feeling these things?
can someone please explain.
i don't know what to do
I'm not sure if i should think.
what if thinking ruins things,
or what if it all just makes sense?
I'm so confused, and scared to be alone,
i want things to go back to normal,
when i had no worries in the world.
©Amber Gomez