At Times I Wonder

You tell me you love me
you say that you care,
but at times i really wonder
if you mean it.
because you've got me
but seem like you want another.
another girl, your first love
and i cant compete with that
do you know that it hurts me?
do you know that i cry?
at times i just want to curl up in a ball
and f'n die.
then maybe you would care for me
after i am no longer here.
or you would you just turn away.
because you never cared.
©Amber Gomez