I Tried

I'm sorry, I tried
I really did
Things got hard
Not like when I was a kid
I don't know if
I caused you pain
If you feel sad
Or just forgot my name
The sadness was too much
And I couldn't stay
It was to hard to tell
Words I could not find to say
So instead of words
I let the bullet do the job
It was too much
I had to let you sit and sob
Looking at me
Lying on the floor
The blood escaping like my pain
My heart couldn't get any more tore
I'm sorry I tried
More than I ever have before
It was getting to be too much
If only I could have given more