7th grade :(broken heart

The most wonderful thing happened in 7th grade I was on the phone talking to my best friend. I thought he was playing around when he asked me if I would be his girlfriend. He said over and over again that he was serious. I didn't know what to say I was speechless. So I thought about it quickly and my respond was yes. The next day at school everyone was asking me the same questions: are you going out with him? I felt really nervous my best friend by my side as we approached him. He gave me a hug and held his hand to mine. As we walked around along with everyone else there wasn't a word I could say. I smelled his curve cologne as we sat in the grass when lunch was over the bell rang he said he would walk me to class. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and he asked??am i gonna see you after this??. In 4th period I didn't focus on math because I kept thinking of him. I felt really happy because he was with me so I sat in the desk and drew little hearts oh how I remember I was so in love! I told my best friend that I loved him and there was no one else. Unfortunately we lasted for 3 weeks the last week we were together it was a Wednesday after school he gave me a Mickey. Holding the Mickey to my chest the words finally came out and I said I love you he stayed silent for a moment and without saying another word smiled back. Then we kissed without knowing it was going to be the last time. That Friday the same week he gave me a note I read and it said :I just wanna be friends I really don't love you I love someone else she is your best friend she is the one I really wanna be with ;(. He had been playing with my feelings my heart torn apart. Disappointed I ripped the paper into little shreds. He called me but I ignored him. I walked as quickly as I could inside I felt the pain hurting. Tears were rolling down from my eyes. When I got home I cried in my bed. I couldn't get him or the words in the note out of my head. He never felt anything for me why didn't I realize he loved my best friend instead of me and every time I heard our song a stream of tears came rolling down. I hugged my Mickey mouse and smelled his scent then I threw the Mickey and said to myself I will be better by myself he wasn't worth it anyways.