Panic!

Uncertainty, so far my best friend and my nearest,
unwillingly, I'm suffering, but stay, whilst fearest,
seemingly insane as schizophrenic,
I need someone, presently, alone in panic.

Get up each day, attempts each day, no sense,
my mind, at least encased, released no chance,
my time, it fades, like shades, in shining light,
like shining light, like shades, will fade at night.

My will, wants willingly to find another me,
another me that's not as me, completing what's to see,
confusing thoughts; thoughts refusing my own life,
author of my history : a fading shade within the light.