A clue

Do you want a clue,
a clue to my life,
about wat ive been through,
with all my blades n my knife,

do you want a demonstration,
demonstration of how i felt all my life,
of why i hate my own reflection,
and of why i cry myself to sleep at night,

do you want to know,
know about my past,
about why i will throw,
my life away at last,

comment and vote please,
thankyou