Am I anything

If I left for awhile would you be hurt?
If i just disappeared would you think it's real
Will you be waiting for me to come back, or would you rub my memories in the dirt
Would your broken heart be able to heal

I don't know what I want, I just want it all to stop
I don't like being compared to others, or being pushed under
In your heart I was once on top
Now, I'm good as gone with the thunder

I don't really know what I'm trying to say here
My feelings are so much more then real
Your heart is in my hands, and your thoughts are near
But, was this really part of our deal

You know I love you, but we are not the same
Things are different and now we must rearrange
Neither one of us is to blame
Our feelings have just become strange

I think we need our space, so my memories please don't erase
I think you need to see, You don't need me to keep you whole
My heart is beating at a fast pace
But, in this game you will always have the lead role

Until we become close again, keep this with you
I didn't let anyone come in and replace you
I kept my promise, I said I will always love you too
But, now it seems like you have forgotten about me

Maybe it's just me, maybe you didn't let someone else come in
But, I don't think I'm wrong I'm pretty sure this is real
I will always be here for you, even if I'm at the bottom of the list
Make yourself remember, Who was it that said believe in yourself and you will see what's real

So I guess for now this is my goodbye
I love you with all my soul and pride
My heart is your's whether you want it or not
But, I can no longer be compared to this new special prize