Ana Told Me: If I Was A Beauty Queen

by Sarah Ann   Jul 6, 2006


It seems I have an issue
That stabs me in the back
Your stories: always filled with lies,
And my puzzles; with cracks

The mirror I couldn't avoid
And I screamed at what I've seen
I noticed that why you're not here
Is because I'm not your dream

I did not have that body
That I knew you always craved
Maybe I knew you were leaving
But I admit that I stood brave

And I knew what you were hiding
At a club most every night
Sleeping with perfect glamour wh0res
While I broke down in fright

With tears falling down my ugly face
Yesterday, I looked at magazines
Saw beautiful girls, skinny and all
Their eyes sparkled and gleamed

And there I knew with a frown
What my heart wanted to do
I will change myself in any way
To get you back or impress you

And so I ate but did not settle
Walked straight to my porcelain sink
And everything came out that night
I never stopped to think

One recurring thought challenged my mind
As I fought in labored breaths
Ana forced me to continue on
Its love or then comes death

You left me, it is all so clear
Picture perfect in every way
Maybe if I was a beauty queen
Ana said you would have stayed

Ana=Anorexia (though it's widely known, just a confirmation)

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  • 17 years ago

    by Absolute Broken Perfection

    This is absolutly beautiful hun.
    I love it

  • 18 years ago

    by UnToLd TrUtH

    Wow this is really sad.

  • 18 years ago

    by Natalie

    Wow, Sarah. That was really good. So sad though. I hope it's not true.. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to =)

    I thought the poem was written really well. And for anyone who is going through something like this, I'm sure they would be able to relate alot. You did a wonderful job! Keep it up! 5/5

    `Taleee. xx.

  • 18 years ago

    by Wrangler

    Hey i am sorry about what you are going through i went through it to but i got over it and you will to just have faith thats all you can do i hope you get through it well i loved the poem you have sucha talent i wish i had it to oh well i can always try i loved the poem it was sad but it made me realize that iwas not the only person going through it and no i am not a girl i am a guy but even guys go through it it was hard to get over but in the end i did and i know you will to just have faith i will keep you in my prayers ok i am here for you to talk to because it is always best to have some1 to talk to well i wish you the best and maybe we will tak some day but i better go for now ok keep on writing and don't stop you will go far and if you ant to know how i write just check my poems i know 1 of them is not good but the other 3 i think are good i hope you will read them and leave a a comment for them i could use all the help i can get so i can be a better writer

  • 18 years ago

    by Sick.&.Tired.Of.Waiting

    AWWWW!! That is so SAD!!! You're anorexic now, I'm assuming by the afternote....I'm so sorry..I used to be.I strugged with anorexia on and off for YEARS...Now i'm a cow again. I love eating. lol! But I know its very, VERY hard...and I'm so sorry, Sarah!! -Sierra

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