I lay here in my bed
Thinking about you
Would you lay here with me?
Tell me about your day?
Tell my how you really feel?
Tell me how much you love me?
Would you stay forever?
As I am laying here
I look at the four walls that surround me
The only place that makes me feel safe
The only place I can go to
When I need time to think
When I go thinking
You Will usually catch me thinking about you
About our past together
How much I really love you
And wanted to be with you
I roll over
Press my head into my pillow
The tears start to roll from my face
I think to myself
Where are these tears coming from?
Why am I crying?
Will these tears ever go away?
I wipe the tears from my eyes
I roll back over
Looking out my window
Where I see the stars that are glowing so brightly
The light from the mood
Comes into my window
Filling my room with light
I look out at the stars
And I wonder if you are looking at them too
Are you looking at the stars?
Are you thinking of me?
What are you really thinking about?
I get out from my bed
Walk to my window
I press myself against it
Once again tears are rolling from my face
Again I think to myself
Where did I go wrong?
Why did you have to leave?
What are thing so hard?
Am I really just not that good enough for you?
More tears start rolling from my face
I turn so I am leaning against the wall
Again I wipe the tears from my eyes
I am still filled up with so much pain
I am still lost in this harsh world
I am still trying to figure out where I belong
Where do I belong?
Who really am I?
Will my life always be filled with pain?
Will I always be filled with pain?
I walk over to my desk
I pull out a picture of you
I run my hand across it
Memories flash
Pain starts to strike my heart
Again I think
Why am I so hooked on you?
What do you have that others don't?
What do I cry at night?
What will all the pain die?
When will I die?
I put the picture back where I kept it
I walk to my bed
Fix it just a little
I get into the bed
Pull the covers all the way over my head
I lay there and wonder
Do you miss me?
Do you love me?
Did you ever really love me?
Would you take me back?
Lift me higher than I could ever be lifted?
I slowly close my eyes
Still thinking about how amazing you are
I roll over
I whisper softly
*I love you*
