Hey there! I too am Christian and can understand your feelings in this poem...God sometimes makes things happen in our life just to see how we react to them..you have to think positive...it also says in the bible "As a man thinketh in his heart, so he is"...meaning you should think positive and will get positive results...you should think highly and trust in your God and believe in him and then maybe he'll see that your faith is for real and not questionable anymore...how can a God help someone when that someone who needs help is doubtful of him...believe hun God will never give you anything you can't handle and he'll never leave or forsake you

Your not hell bound because god sent me
to make sure that you would see
he is with you everywhere
you just don't look to see him there
We hurt because we choose to
Even though he'll be there through and through
He gave us the choice because he loves us
so why is there such a fus
there is a God and he is answering you now
who else would know how
saved u are because of his blood
that washes away all of the mud
all the pain that you feel inside
from his love it can not hide
To find him look in the places love would dwell
instead of focussing on hell
He hears you calling
And he catches you when your falling
You just have to listen closely
And he will do the yest mostly