SELFISH CONVERSATION

She says I am selfish feel nothing
She says I am very mean
I am still not ashamed as I feel nothing

What I had one time I lost it tonight
I had so many things to be proud
Had myself to stand in the crowd

Had nothing real in life to care for
Loneliness was always cut short
Making it my secret weapon

I have but nothing to say now
I have totally lost my ground
In this selfish conversation

So many things I had to be said
So many feeling had unturned
All lost in the dust of time

Stepped up on my wishes
Stepped down on others
Triggered all the worries

She said she will stay with me
She said she would always care
Acts now as if I donâ??t know

Left me in this wilderness
Struggling with my soul
Donâ??t see her anywhere near me

Wrote what I had for her
Got so easily erased
As I write again but all in a maze

For what we make dear of in life
Lost as I am in this strange world
Fear of being me again

So much that was said
Is so little in words
Nothing else comes to my hands

Shall I be but me again
Start again in my life
Try to be what you want me to be

But I donâ??t know what
As I can never pretend
Truth I shall hide as I love her still