I love you to death........

I look at my-self in disgust,
I wish my eyes would pop out,
and my head would burst,
How can I love my-self if you wont?
Why should I cave if you wont?
All this feeling of self-deprecation,
All the false smiles and irritation,
I'm suffocating and cant breathe,
I'm choking and going blind,
I cant see...... I'm dying....
and reality hits me like a brick,
I feel your hands gripping at my throat,
I'm bout to be sick,
i feel a smile come over me, your arms start to bend,
how quickly my life has come to an end...
you shed a tear over my lifeless remains,
from which you have nothing to gain only a loss,
and you understand life at its cost....