The tyme i've waisted
is my biggest regret
spent in this place
I will never forget
jsut sittin & thinking
about the things i've done
the crying the laughing
the hurt and the fun
now it's just me &
my hard driven guilt
behind a wall of emptyness
i allowed to be built
i'm trapped in my body
just waitin to run
back to my youh
with it's laughter and fun
but the choice is over
& there's no place to hide
everything is gone
including my pride
with reality suddenly
in my face
i'm second & alone &
stuck in this place
now memories of the past
flash through my head
& now the pain is obvious
by the tears i've shed
i ask myself why
and where i went wrong
i guess i wuz weak
when i shouldv'e been strong
living for drugs
& the wings i've grown
my feelings were last.....
afraid to be shown
as i look at the past
it's so easy to see
the fear that i had
i wuz afraid of me
i pretend to be rugged
so fast & so kewl
when i wuz actually lost
like a blind ol' fool
i'm gettin to old
for this tiresome game
of acting real kewl
with no since of shame
it's tyme that i change
get on w/ my life
fullfilling my dreams
for a family & a husband
what my future will hold
i really don't know
but the yrs i've waisted
are certain to show
i just live for the day
when i'll get a new start
& the dreams i still hold
deep in my heart
i hope i can make it
i at least have to try
b/c i'm headin for death
& i don't want to die.
This poem is about all the way i want everybody that reads it will try and understand where im coming from, and why my poems aren't nice or whatever u want to say lol....
