Everytime is different

Everytime is different,
These words always change.
I sit in my dark bedroom
Trying to forget my pain.

I can't cry a tear,
For everyone will laugh.
You can't hear my screams
As my voice runs out of gas.

Everytime is different,
Not even the weather stays the same.
I sit in the green garden
Gazing into my pain.

My cuts can't bleed,
For everyone will see.
You can't feel my heartbeat
As my pulse runs free.

Everytime is different,
The voices gradually getting louder.
I lie down on my empty bed,
Sleeping off my pain.

I can't force my smile,
For everyone will guess.
You can't remember my face,
Was it cute, or is it just a mess?

Everytime is different,
Nothings quite how it was.
I am here now,
But how much longer will my pain last?

I can't speak these words,
For everyone will hear.
You can't imagine my life,
It is your darkest, worst fear.