A Crimson Bath

I am falling through a dark tunnel
As I shut myself from all the rest
I fill my bathtub to the maximum
Shaking, I begin to get undressed

My feet touch the icy bath water
As I drown myself in crimson tears
I lay my head for my eternal sleep
As thoughts pass me by like fears

I grasp the razor that is sitting there
Waiting eagerly to touch my skin
Ready to depart to another place
As pain resides there from within

Blood begins to seep through my hand
As I cut away my fears and sorrow
My soul departing breaking me free
With no promises for me tomorrow

Memories pass, the rain falls hard
Recalling what everyone has said
I am needed here, but it is all a lie
For a long time I have been dead

Gasping for air I begin to choke
Drowning in my own pool of blood
I dip my head under the red fluids
Until the crimson bathtub over floods

The scars remind me I once had a life
Filled of depression and so much pain
Making my wise choice I am leaving
So that nothing will ever be the same

..::This Is An Older Poem That I Found In My Room, Written About A Year Ago::..