But all seems so far away

I wish I could change,
Than you wouldn't feel ashamed,
To still be with me,
But all seems so far away,

I wish I could keep a promise,
Save you from another heartache,
Maybe the yelling would stop,
But all seems so far away,

I wish I knew why I do what I do,
Than I could give you an answer,
To your question, "why"?
But all seems so far away,

I wish I could go back,
Than we wouldn't be where were at,
We would be nothing more than friends,
But in real life there is no happy end.