I`m trying to forgive you father

I am trying to forgive you father
But I don't know who you are
Or where you've been
I don't even know the color of your skin

I am trying to forgive you father
But you've left a scar in my life
The one that won't go away
The one that will forever stay

I am trying to forgive you father
But how can I you've never been there
For birthdays and parties not
Even mommies anniversary

Father where have you been all my life
When I was young or even my first bike
Do you know sometimes when I sleep at night
I would wake up screaming with a fright

Father did you know each year when
My birthday came around my one wish was
For you turn around and come back home
Or maybe you could pick up the phone

I've never heard your voice before
Daddy I wish you could see what I see
So that you could know that
You were meant to be here with me

I am trying to forgive you father
But as I get older and the days get colder
Life seems to take a change
And only the mere memory of loving you remains

I am trying to forgive you father
But how can I when you left me
Dying inside when you completely walked
Out of my life but guess ?what I held on to my pride

So father I am trying to forgive you
But I cant not now not ever
How can I forgive someone
I've never met or seen to me
You're just a damn memory.