It feels so relaxing and soothing, the warm sun is bright and the breeze have the trees moving. Ocean is singing to me with different melodies, my soul is rested steadily. Not having any trouble or worries, my emotions are sturdy. As i walk... the sand goes between my toes, walking with my arms open and my eyes closed, following the direction the wind blows. I feel so happy. Tamed by the innocence of children playing and laughing. I have nothing to fear, i can be myself without a care. I hear the soft voices of birds chirping, i no longer feel the pain and hurting. I feel as though i can fly, the world has stopped in time in my mind. No one knows my existence, I'm a complete stranger no one judges my appearance. I'm alone but yet I'm not lonely, I feel as if angels are watching over me. This is the life i accept. Nothing else could make me feel more content. But this is only in my dreams, right now I'm stuck in reality. Living in this harsh world is not for me, wish i could move away from everybody. I don't want to argue and i don't want to feel i need proof, to show somebody I'm telling the truth. I don't want to live in negativity, want to be free and enjoy life possibly. Is that too much to ask? To put all the drama and sorrows in the past? I feel like now I'm stuck in pitch dark, I've been through too much I'm surprised Ive made it this far. I feel as if I'm lost in some sort of jungle, trying to survive but i always seem to stumble. I'm fighting for my life as i continue to try, inside i feel like I'm dying but outside I'm still alive. I can't keep my composure, dealing with this torture. Wishing better days will rise, and hoping i make it through to find paradise. Life has given me nothing but hurt from my first birthday, there has to be something in the end thats worth it.
