This Girl Is Me.

This girl hides behind a smile of tears,
Always running away,
Never facing her fears.

This girl's laughter is never real,
Making everything seem ok,
But hiding all the pain she can feel.

This girl has so many words she wants to scream,
But she continues to hold them in,
And continues to have those bad dreams.

This girl doesn't want to hurt herself,
But the blade continues to slice,
Leaving this girl with scars of her life.

This girl always pushes away help,
But when she wants it,
She reaches out and darkness is all that's felt.

This girl wants to escape this depressed state,
Sometimes she manages to leave,
But it always catches up to cause a terrible fate.

This girl has pain she can only release with a blade,
Forever leaving scars,
Forever letting her smile fade.

This girl lives with a family that cause her pain,
She tries to fit in,
But is sometimes left with her scars of shame.

This girl has problems of her own,
But her parents always overlook her,
And her pain remains un-shown.

This girl wants to be happy without pain,
She wants to throw the blade away,
And she wants her smile to shine again.

This girl is sick of hurting people,
She feels like she's a burden on their lives,
That's why she turns to knives.

This girl can only cry tears of blood,
She can never kill herself,
So she continues to let her tears flood.

This girl has friends she doesn't want to hurt,
She tries to protect them from herself,
But sometimes she drops them in the dirt.

This girl wants to let go of her life,
But she will continue to fight,
Trying to avoid the knife.

This girl wants to cry from too much laughter,
Not from the scars on her wrists she finds the next day
Because she has been a lousy daughter.

This girl prays that she'll wake up happy,
That she'll never have terrible dreams again,
She prays but everything remains the same.

This girl I am afraid of,
This girl haunts me,
This girl I can't escape
Because,
This girl is me.